Tonight my head is swimming with thoughts. I have been thinking of all the plans I have and how to make them come to pass and what I need to do to accomplish that and what the obstacles might be...
The thoughts I'm having are for long range plans and there is nothing I can do at this moment to make them happen which is why this is so maddening and probably will cause me to have a sleepless night. My mind does this a couple of times each month. I have these meandering thoughts, one leading to another, and no end in sight. Thoughts like "if I get the chance to move abroad, what will I take and how" and "what kind of jobs will be available to me" and so on. Of course, there's no way of knowing that now and that's exactly why the thoughts won't leave me tonight.
I think there is something about the excitement of just thinking about making this happen that causes my mind to muddle down in it. I mean, it is a thrilling plan for sure and something I want more than life itself. I know that it will happen but, as with all good things, I have to take it one step at a time and not get ahead of myself. Of course, my mind is so far ahead that I will have to run to catch up!
I've begun making mental lists of all that has to be accomplished in order to do this. I have begun to categorize the lists in order of importance. I have begun fantasizing about what it will be like. In short, I have begun making myself a little crazy about all of it!
It will happen. And I won't be alone in the planning. So, for now, I just have to relax and take it one day at a time.
1 comment:
oh i know that anxiety well my friend. lists help me, make lists.
oh, and vodka.
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