Yeah so, this week so far really bites. I'm still not feeling great. I went to work in spite of it and almost made it through the day. I came home a couple of hours early. Arnie is pathetic. Just plain pathetic. He's so sick right now. His eye is ugly, he's not eating well, and he's uncomfortable because of the plastic cone collar. When I came home I sat down on the couch to rest and he climbed up into my arms and went to sleep. I didn't have the heart to move him so I let him stay there and sleep for two hours. I wasn't feeling like getting up to do anything anyway so we sort of just vegged there together. I was happy that he came up to me. He's really shying away from me because of all the eye drops. Of course, when I finally had to get up I first put some drops in his eyes which I'm sure will now make him never want to snuggle with me again.
I hate that he's sick. I feel like I am the most inept person. I just don't know what to do other than what the vet says to do and, frankly, that doesn't seem to be working all that well. Alex tells me to be patient but he hasn't seen poor Arnie just completely lacking any energy or joy. I find myself celebrating the small victories like when I noticed he did go and eat something finally or when I check to see if he's really just sleeping or if he's still breathing.
I never thought I would become a crazy cat lady but here I am in a panic over this furball. I can't help it. He's fully taken his place in my heart and I'm responsible for him. I feel like a failure. I can't make him better.
3 comments:
poor baby. I feel for you. have you called the vet back? have you been to the doctor yourself? I got a very serious case of bronchitis from one of my favorite cats once. I know your tough but go check on it before it gets out of control. if your anything like me you'll just figure it will get better until one day you wake up and can't breathe. I'm worried about you...take care of yourself and arnie, of coarse. hope you feel better :~
animals are tough to help mend, they can't tell you when they hurt or they are improving. the rest is the best thing for him, have patience and keep listening to the vet, he'll be ok
Thank prin and van - I appreciate the kind thoughts.
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