I'm struggling. It's hard to even explain it really. I have the feeling that I'm just not able to communicate in a way that makes sense any more. I don't mean for this to sound all dark and desperate. This is just what's going on in my thoughts at the moment so consider this "thinking out loud" or at least "thinking while typing".
Whatever it is, it has left me second guessing myself over and over again which always leaves me feeling less than self confident. It's not that I think I have to have all the answers or even that I do have any of the answers. It's just once in a while I need to be reassured. And calmed.
At work, people come to me everyday, all day, to get answers to their questions. It's hard to switch that off when I'm at home. And I can see where that can be annoying to people in my life if all they are really wanting is someone to listen...not someone to respond. I have to work on this. I have to work on many things. I know I am flawed. I just hope that the flaws aren't so annoying that people won't tolerate them while I work on them. :)
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