Keeping my chin up...

This week has been difficult for me. I can't help worrying about what the future will hold and it seems my work future, though I will have a job, may include choosing to do something other than what I really want to do. While I appreciate that I will still have gainful employment, I feel rather like my fate is at the hands of someone else and I will just have to make the best of it, whatever that means.

It's also been difficult coming to work everyday and trying to keep my chin up and head down at this job knowing that the work I have done is unappreciated and the work I am doing is all for naught. I really need a break. I have some vacation time accrued but I was hoping to save it for when Alexander finally gets here. Right now though, I am rethinking that. I think I need to take a week off to get my head together and get some distance from this place for a while. I know that when Alexander does get here I can negotiate some time off then so I think I may have to take it now. More to think about...

All in all, I am having a bad attitude about this whole situation. I'm trying to stay positive and upbeat and seeing the bright side of things but it gets harder every day. Yeah, some time off is necessary.