Dear T.,
I want to thank you for dumping me. Seriously, I know I was wrecked when it happened but it was the best thing you could have ever done for me. At the time we dated, I had no self esteem. Frankly, though I wouldn't admit this at the time, I was pretty sure you were the best I could do. And that, my dear ex, is the saddest revelation I could say. Sad, because you treated me like shit. And at the time, I thought I deserved it. I thought if I was only prettier, kinder, more fun, better in all ways, that you would see how great I was and stay with me forever. Well, you didn't. What you saw was me groveling, with no back bone and no character of my own. I can't blame you for not loving that.
I was devastated when you left me. I went through a dark time, sad, lonely and full of self hate. I made myself spend time thinking, reading, drawing and, you know what? I found myself. That self that was always there but that you so successfully pushed down on a daily basis. And you know what else? That self was a pretty cool chick! I started to like her and. guess what? I love her now.
So thank you, you big prick! I would say I hope you get what you deserve in life but I don't believe in hate. Hatred just makes me ill and what's the good of that? I'll just say this...wherever you are, whoever you're with...I hope you are treating her better than you treated me. Because all women deserve to feel needed, wanted, sexy, beautiful, loved and appreciate. And right now, I do. I feel that every day of my life and I couldn't be happier!
With no regrets,
Mary
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