And the health issues continue...

So for the past month I've been following my doc's orders and taking everything he's prescribed as prescribed. Final result? I feel exactly the same as when I started and nothing has changed. I feel like shit. In fact, I went through one round of antibiotic, called the doc, got another round of something new and that still didn't work. So...

Yesterday, I had my follow up appointment with him. I have three new appointments awaiting me - one for a colonoscopy, one for a pap smear and one for sleep study. I also have to get a CT scan and some more blood work done.  Now, I'm still taking the iron supplement and the high dose of Vitamin D, something to help me sleep and Prozac. I have to take a probiotic and a nose spray. I went from not taking anything stronger than a Tylenol to taking 6 prescribed medications. I only just started them today so there's no verdict yet as to whether this is now helping me. I stayed home from work today, feeling like crap, and hoping this combo will kick in and I start feeling like a human being again.

There's always hope.

And now a momentary whine....

I don't really want to use my blog to vent but I'm going to. If you hate whining...look away now. I'm feeling really bad right now. So unsettled and wanting, very, very badly to be far away. It's summer and it's really hitting home that Alex is in Sweden and I am here and, for now, that's the way it has to be. For the past few years now, at this time each year, either he would come here for a month or so or I would go there. It was the milestone in the year that made all that time apart bearable. Right now we're waiting to hear from Immigration about the approval for his visa so we cannot travel since they cannot give us any real timeline and it would truly suck if he was here and the notification got sent out while he was away from home.

So we wait.

Everything I see or do here reminds me more that he is not here and I am not there. We're heading into the holiday weekend here and every plan I have is void of his presence. I hate it!! I run the gamut of emotions from lonely to sad to angry to frustrated to happy (because we ARE getting closer to the final goal regardless of the wait...). I want one thing...just one - for us to be in the same place, at the same time, together, permanently!

Okay, whine time is over. You may now return to your regularly scheduled program.