I think I thunk....

I've been thinking again. I've been thinking about my life over the past three years and how much it has changed. Three years ago, I was married though not terribly happy. I was sort of stuck. Every day I would wake up, go to work, come home, cook, watch TV, sleep and start it all over again the next day. I could feel my soul slowly dying inside and it wasn't a good feeling. This feeling has nothing and everything to do with my then husband. He's a great guy and will always be a part of my life but I realized three years ago that I had to get out for my own sake and my own sanity. And yes, there were factors contributed by him to the situation that did not make it easy. Is divorce ever easy? Even when you both agree it's for the best? Baggage is baggage no matter how many pretty bows you put on it.

I still sometimes have days now where I get up, go to work, come home, cook, watch TV and sleep but there is a difference. Back then, those days were like being suctioned to a side of a well and I was just hanging there without a clue. These days, I'm waiting. I don't necessarily like waiting. In fact, I hate waiting. I'm not a very patient person. But knowing that I am waiting for the most wonderful time in my life to begin with the most wonderful person in the world, I can tolerate it. The down time gives me time to reflect and to learn and to plan and to know how lucky I am, how good life is and how it will be even better...soon.


Whoa...on an entirely different note...I'm posting this later than the above. I just got home from my mom's house. My brother was in a car accident this morning. His car was broadsided by an enormous dump truck the ran a red light. The car was completely demolished. My brother hit his head and was knocked unconscious. He was taken by rescue to a local hospital. A CT Scan shows that he has some internal bleeding on his brain. They took him by ambulance to Froedtert Hospital in Milwaukee to the Neuro Trauma unit. They think he will be okay. The bleeding seems to have stopped and they are holding him for the next couple of days to run more tests and make sure that there is no swelling in the brain. The amazing thing is he has no cuts, nicks, abrasions, or any broken bones. He will be okay. He will be extremely sore and is likely to have some wicked bad bruising for a while but he will be okay. How he emerged from that wreck of a car without serious, permanent injury or death is really a miracle. Whew... what a difference a few hours can make. So, keep him in your thoughts and I'm sure he'll come through this fine.