Terminal Guilt

I have an illness. I think I was born with it and it is incurable. I have this overwhelming feeling of responsibility for everything and everyone in my life. I don't know why I am like this and it is really starting to bother me. I think that most normal people can walk away from situations without being compelled to "fix" them. For some reason, I can't. I feel that anything bad that happens to people in my life is somehow my ultimately my fault and that makes me feel responsible to do something. Rationally, I know that's not true but I got through the gamut of emotions each and every time. I also know that, because I have this illness, I have spent most of my life making decisions that directly and negatively affect my life in order to keep those around me happy.

I think I am making progress though. I have been able to recognize this in myself and, in spite of how guilty it makes me feel, I have been able to keep myself from always stepping in to make things right. But it's difficult...and it hurts.