Um....yeah....

So I've had a rough couple of days. Emotionally I feel spent. I've been making mental lists of all the truly good things I have in my life and hope that just thinking of them will wipe away these cobwebs of doubt and gloom once and for all. It's touch and go. Sometimes, I feel the cobwebs winning.

I need to get out today - if only to engage in the kind of mundane, routine things that will, at least, take my mind off of everything. My whole world is thousands of miles away and, right now, I feel very small and very alone.

I know that I will shake this off and get on with it. I'm resilient that way. And things will get back to some semblance of normal. But I think that's the problem...

I don't want the normal that I have to live each day. I want a new normal. And I can't get it. So, yeah...cobwebs 1, Mary 0.