So last week was hell. And next week will be hell. But today, ah...today, is a wonderful day. Waking up to beautiful sunshine and warm breezes with a whole day of whatever I want it to be ahead of me is a beautiful thing. I have much to do getting things ready for Alex's visit in a week but these things are labors of love so I'm having a good time doing them.
I can't get too down about the work scene since I know that I can only do what I can do there and the things that are out of my control are not mine to worry about. Yet I know that if I continue to have weeks on end of the kind of intense stress I had last week, it may come to the point where I have to ask myself those hard questions. Is this what I want to keep doing? Am I prepared to leave a job that I've had for 13 years and move on at this point in my life when having a job is the anchor of all my future plans? It's tricky. But for now, it is what it is.
And very soon my life will get better - if only for a month or so. But in that month plans will be made and the whole course of where I end up will change. And that excites me to no end. So, as these warm breezes blow, today is good. Very, very good.
1 comment:
big breath, you will be fine. i believe in ya lady.
oh and drink some vodka, but not while breathing, you'll choke on it
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