Losing sight of the big picture...

I found myself today getting bogged down in the tiny irritating details that sometimes comprises my work day. It doesn't help that it's unbelievably beautiful outside right now and I'm having one of those anywhere but here moments. Of course, my personal "anywhere but here" would be Sweden and for the last two days I've been getting glimpses of that wonderland over and over again. Case in point, last night before I went to bed I was channel surfing and came across a travel show which happened to be about Stockholm. I stopped and felt sorry for myself as the hostess wandered the streets of that fair city and, it turns out, pointed out all of the places I have been. I longed to be there again. Today, when I checked my mail at work, a Community of Sweden buddy of mine had sent me a copy of the Swedish Press. Again, I felt that twinge of just wanting to be there. Then there was the sweet picture Alex sent me of some lammies in a field that he was walking past. Instant homesickness for a home I haven't even had yet.

Then, of course, there's work and all those irritations - the never ending paperwork, the calls, the questions, the meetings. One by one, they mounted up and the combination of that with my yearning to be elsewhere started to get me down. But (and it's a big but!) I know that the short term and long range plans are in motion and I have to remind myself to keep my sights steadily gazing on the big picture. I know that it will all come to me in time and I have to BE PATIENT! I think I'm going to make a sign for myself that says that. BE PATIENT!

I've been on a pretty damn interesting journey these past two years - a journey of self discovery, self realization and emotional ups and downs. And in the end, I know that I am headed to where I am meant to be - forever. So, I must BE PATIENT! If only for just a little more.