Large and in charge...

Okay, it's time for me to take charge.

Over the past month or so I've felt like shit. Sorry for putting it so frankly but there it is. I feel like shit. I know that 99% of the reason why is that I am overweight. Now, I've been overweight for most of my life. I've always been the fat girl in school, the fat girl in college, the fat girl in the neighborhood - just the fat girl. I've struggled with finding clothing that both fits me and is good looking. I've hated and loved myself at the same time. I would like to be one of those women who embraces her curves but the truth is, I am not. I am the fat chick in the corner screaming for an end to this madness.

Since I've been this way for so long I've become a Master at masking my feelings. I've also come to know my body pretty well and know when something ain't right. And this isn't right. I'm short of breath and having chronic sinus issues. I'm exhausted most of the time and falling asleep just about everywhere I sit for too long, including at this keyboard.Seriously, I can sleep soundly for 9 hours, get up for an hour and fall right back go sleep. My knee hurts more than it should in spite of having arthritis and standing for a long time just about kills me!

So, my new year's resolution is simply this...

I'm making an appointment to get a physical. I'm going to follow my doctor's orders to a T and figure out what's going wrong with me. And then...I'm going to get better.