Something they tell you to do after you have surgery is to try to stay in front of the pain. This means they want you to take a pain medication before the pain margin becomes too much for you to bear. This has always been a concept that eludes me though. I have a high threshold for pain. On a scale from 1 - 10 for most people who would be at a 8 or 9 I am usually at a 3 or 4. So it's hard for me to know what staying in front of the pain means, actually.
This pain I'm having since surgery is really kicking my ass though. I will admit that. I have had to take the pain meds which I hate but there's no getting around it. And I've been using my yoga breathing to get through the worst of it. But little by little I can feel some improvement each day.
I'm still waiting for the pathology results. The waiting sucks, I won't deny it. I hate waiting. I want to know what's next - either I am well and life goes on or I have more treatment and life goes on. Either way, I want to know which path is mine to take.
The other thing I have to do is inject myself twice a day with a blood thinner. Never thought I'd be sticking myself with needles but here I am, 9am and 9pm, without fail. Glad that's only temporary - it doesn't hurt but it isn't pleasant either.
I know that I am luckier than some who have been diagnosed with cancer. And I know that this could be just the beginning but I have to be positive that this is the worst it will be and once I get the results I will be on the way to better health.
I know for sure that I will not be sad to see the tail end of 2015. Three surgeries in one year...that's enough for me.
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