Blah, blah, blah, blah, blah...

I'm experiencing some serious burn out on my job lately. Don't get me wrong...I love what I do. Still, this time of year I can think of a million other things I'd rather be doing and a million other places I'd rather be. Each morning, I have to give myself a pep talk to get myself going. I come to work ready for the day, get a few hours into it and then...blah, blah, blah.

Summer has always been hard for me. The weather outside is beautiful and I want to be anywhere but here. My mind is full of wanderlust. I want to be off on our trip to Sweden. I want to start a project like going back to school. I want to get out and live a little. Sometimes it gets so bad that I am merely checking off time between work stuffs to get to the end of the day. Today is one of those days. I crammed my morning full of letter writing, contacting people, answering questions and dealing with clients and now, at 3pm, my mind is off on a tangent and when a work question arises it becomes more of an inconvenience than anything else.

Even though I do like my job, I'm kind of over it too. I've done this for a very long time and I have to think there is more to look forward to than 9 hours of this each day. I'm feeling punchy. And I like my coworkers very much too but I'm longing for new faces and new places. I need an adventure. Something that will last for the rest of my life. Not just a vacation...a real adventure. New beginnings and all that.

I've had this feeling many times before. I try very hard to keep it in check so I don't fly off and do something I will really regret later. Like quit my job! I'm not that silly. Really, I'm not. I'm sure something will come along to divert my attention. Maybe school. Maybe a plan to move, once and for all. Its out there. I just have to be patient and think it through rationally.

In the meantime, I will plug away here and try very hard not to hide under my desk. Of course, it's kind of nice under there...quiet...and no one can find me!

Another bitch rant about the heat...

No, seriously, this heat is all that's on my mind right now so that's what I'm writing about. Today we cancelled "Bingo" for our clients due to the heat. What kind of crazy heat does there have to be in order for "Bingo" to be cancelled!? This kind of crazy heat, that's what. The kind that sucks out your will to live in just minutes. We told everyone to stay home, drink water and stay cool. Of course, some of them didn't listen and those that didn't were here screaming at us for something or other. Normally, the screamers are few and far between but today, what with everyone's will to live sucked out of them, they were rampant.

It is too damn hot here today.

It's too hot to even go to the beach.

It's too hot for clothes (though they appreciate it when you keep those on at work).

It's too hot for chit chat. That just makes my boiled brain hurt.

It's too hot to concentrate on anything. People are walking around the office like zombies.

It's too hot to get up and refill my water bottle. But I will because I need the water.

It's too hot to eat.

It's too hot for shoes. Flip flops at work? Hells yeah! I dare someone to call me on it...I just dare them! (insert stern mean mug photo here)

It's too hot to drive. Have I mentioned my AC in my car doesn't work? I drove Alex home from work so he didn't have to walk and it was like driving him home in a microwave. Without the added benefit of popcorn.

It's too hot to listen to music. My ear buds make my head sweat.

I want to be somewhere cold having one of these.



I love summer. It's my favorite time of year, next to Christmas, but please, for the love of all that's holy, please make this heat wave stop.